The Thoughts Which Flow Into Me When i'm Alone

If I had only…
Forgotten future greatness
And looked at the green things and the buildings
And reached out to those around me
And smelled the air
And enjoyed all the little things in life
And ignored my self-styled obligations
And a caring voice of a friend who helps me in every step
And a voice of whom fills me with courage
And a company of whom gives me happiness,
Because of all these I am still here…..

I have had a good life-longer than many, better than most.
I have had 22 years, where I could not justify another day.
I did not create myself, it is a gift.
I am me, which is a miracle.
I had no right to remain a single hour.
Some remain a single minute.
And yet I have had 22 years.


When its morning I feel within my hands another day.
Another day to listen and walk to go through all the daily routine and the same old things.

What does it mean to be here? What does it mean to have friends?
What does it, mean to get dressed, to have a meal, to work? What does it mean to get back home?
What is the difference between the living and the dead?

These thoughts just ponder me day n night..

Today I want to do things to be doing them, not to be doing something else.
I don’t want to do things to sell myself on myself.
I don’t want to do nice things to people so that I will be “nice”.

My prayer is:

I will be what I will be; I will do what I will do.
All I want to do, need to do is stay within me.
All I want to do is, to do what I do and not try to do what I don’t do.
Just do what I do, just keep pace with myself.
Just be want I want to be.
“I always do so-and so,” or “I never do so-and-so,” as if being my self…..


“Next time I will……..”

“From now on I will…………….”

Is what make me think I am wiser today than I will be tomorrow????????

The Words Of The Person Who Inspires Me The Most

Ask nothing; want nothing in return. Give what you have to give; it will come back to you -- but do not think of that now... Yet have the power to give: give, and there it ends. Learn that the whole of life is giving, that nature will force you to give. So, give willingly. Sooner or later you will have to give up. You come into life to accumulate. With clenched hands, you want to take. But nature puts a hand on your throat and makes your hands open...The moment you say, "I will not", the blow comes; you are hurt. None is there but will be compelled, in the long run, to give up everything. And the more one struggles against this law, the more miserable one feels. [It] is because we dare not give, because we are not resigned enough to accede to this grand demand of nature, that we are miserable... The sun is taking up water from the ocean, to return it in showers. You are a machine for taking and giving: you take, in order to give. Ask, therefore, nothing in return; but the more you give, the more will come to you. The quicker you can empty the air out of this room, the quicker it will be filled up by the external air; and if you close all the doors and every aperture, that which is within will remain, but that which is outside will never come in, and that which is within will stagnate, degenerate, and become poisoned. A river is continually emptying itself into the ocean and is continually filling up again. Bar not the exit into the ocean.The moment you do that, death seizes you. Be, therefore, not a beggar; be unattached... Even if our every attempt is a failure, and we bleed and are torn asunder, yet, through all this, we have to preserve our heart -- we must assert our Godhead in the midst of all these difficulties. Nature wants us to react, to return blow for blow, cheating for cheating, lie for lie, to hit back with all our might. Then it requires a superdivine power not to hit back, to keep control, to be unattached.
- inspired by the words of swami vivekananda(leaves in fame)