A Thought

At first I thought that to “be myself” meant simply to act the way I feel. I would ask myself a question such as,” What do I want to say to this person?” and very often the answer was surprisingly negative. It seemed that my negative feelings were always the once I noticed first, possibly because of their social unusualness, possibly because I feared having to act them out. However, as I continued practicing I saw that below these were more positive feelings. If I was still long enough to look deeply. The more I attempted to” be me” the more “me’s” I found there were. Now I understand that to be myself means consciously choosing which level of my feelings I am going to respond to and recognizing that , whatever I am feeling, I am always free to think carefully rather than carelessly about myself and those around me. When I am careful about the thoughts I brood on, because thought precedes feeling, circumstances can no longer dictate my mood. But when I think carelessly, my self is “lost in thought”

Live Life To The Fullest !!!!!!!!!

Gone are the days!!!

When

The school reopened in June,

And we settled in our new desks and benches!

When we queued up in book depot,

And got our new books and notes!

When we wanted two Sundays and no Mondays,

Yet managed to line up daily for the morning prayers.

We learnt writing with slates and pencils,

and progressed to fountain pens and ball pens and then Micro tips!

When we began drawing with crayons and evolved to

Color pencils and finally sketch pens!

When we started calculating

first with tables and then with

Clarke's tables and advanced to

Calculators and computers!

When we chased one another in the

corridors in Intervals, and returned to the classrooms

drenched in sweat!

When we had lunch in classrooms, corridors,

Playgrounds,

under the trees and even in cycle sheds!

When a single P.T. period in the week's Time Table,

Was awaited more eagerly than the monsoons!

When cricket was played with writing pads as bats,

And Neckties and socks rolled into balls!

When few played

"kabadi" and "Kho-Kho" in scorching sun,

While others simply played"book cricket" in the

Confines of classroom!

Of fights but no conspiracies,

Of Competitions but seldom jealousy

When few rushed at 3:45 to

"Conquer" window seats in our School bus!

While few others had "Big Fun", "peppermint",

"kulfi", " milk ice !" and "sharbat !" at 4 ' o' Clock! On our way back home.

Gone are the days

Of sports Day,

and the annual School Day ,

And the one-month long

preparations for them.

Gone are the days

Of the stressful Quarterly,

Half Yearly and Annual Exams,

And the most

enjoyed holidays after them.

Gone are the days

Of tenth and twelfth standards, when

We Spent almost the whole year writing revision tests!

We learnt,

We enjoyed,

We played,

We won,

We lost,

We laughed,

We cried,

We fought,

We thought.

With so much fun in them, so many friends,

So much experience, all this and more!

Gone are the days

When we used

to talk for hours with our friends!

Now we don't have time to say a 'Hi'!

Gone are the days

When we sat to chat with Friends on grounds!

Now we chat in chat rooms.....!

Gone are the days

Where we

studied just to pass!

Now we study to save our job!

Gone are the days

Where we had no money in our pockets and still fun filled on our hearts!!

Now we have the atm as well as credit card but with an empty heart!!

Gone are the days

Where we shouted on the road!

Now we don't shout even at home

Gone are the days

Where we got lectures from all!

Now we give lectures to all...

like the one I'm doing now....!!

Gone are the days

But not the memories,

which will beLingering in our hearts for ever and ever and

Ever and ever and ever .....

Gone are the Days....

But still there are lot more Days to come in our Life!!

NO MATTER HOW BUSY YOU ARE ,

DONT FORGET TO

LIVE THE LIFE THAT STILL

EXISTS....

Be Yourself

In trying to make the ends meet
And working hard to make a living
Don’t forget to live your life so sweet
For, in the end you take away nothing.

Set aside for yourself some time each day
Despite the demands made on your time
Busy chasing the bucks don’t loose your way
For, in the end you can’t even carry a dime.

Smile at a stranger as you pass him by
Wave at a school bus carrying a bunch of kids
Help someone, or at least give it a try
Clean your rooms, and make your beds.

Whatever you do give it your best
And hope to god that things turn out well
But just in case you get the worst
Don’t give Up, but Try again-Oh! What the hell?

Say or do some thing people will be remember you by
Your friend and family
They should miss you terrible after you die
And say “You had made a difference in my life”.

Small little things you do every day
Can make this world a better place for you and me
So, remember to be yourself today
And let the future as bright as today be.

Don't be somebody,Be Yourself!

What i Have Learnt

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it may be better tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles a rainy day and lost luggage.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.

I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life."

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.People love that human touch - holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

The Criticism That Hurts The Most

There are two ways of discovering the areas where i fail to see myself:

The first is to acknowledge the qualities in others that irritate me.
The second is acknowleding the comments that have made me defensive

To discover what irritates me, i merely review my latest encounters, but i have more difficulty recognizing when i am defensive.

I can sometimes identify it bye the following syndrome:
I answer quickly.
I feel an urge to say more than i need to.
I explain,try to persuade, and feel impatient when interrupted.
I feel frustrated even if i appear to succeed, as if the damage has already been done.
I am incapable of taking that persons words any way but seriously, this persons words never seemed light in the recent past ( yet when my reaction becomes apparent, the person often takes the situation lightly)

It is afterwards that my defensiveness surfaces ( usually because I have been chewing on what was said) my mental state has these characteristics:

I Think hurriedly.
I Think in circles, replaying the scene and endlessly revising my part.
I look for ways to justify attacking back-never fully admitting my true motive.
And i feel a strong resistance to stopping and implementing a procedure that would change my mental tone..

The Thoughts Which Flow Into Me When i'm Alone

If I had only…
Forgotten future greatness
And looked at the green things and the buildings
And reached out to those around me
And smelled the air
And enjoyed all the little things in life
And ignored my self-styled obligations
And a caring voice of a friend who helps me in every step
And a voice of whom fills me with courage
And a company of whom gives me happiness,
Because of all these I am still here…..

I have had a good life-longer than many, better than most.
I have had 22 years, where I could not justify another day.
I did not create myself, it is a gift.
I am me, which is a miracle.
I had no right to remain a single hour.
Some remain a single minute.
And yet I have had 22 years.


When its morning I feel within my hands another day.
Another day to listen and walk to go through all the daily routine and the same old things.

What does it mean to be here? What does it mean to have friends?
What does it, mean to get dressed, to have a meal, to work? What does it mean to get back home?
What is the difference between the living and the dead?

These thoughts just ponder me day n night..

Today I want to do things to be doing them, not to be doing something else.
I don’t want to do things to sell myself on myself.
I don’t want to do nice things to people so that I will be “nice”.

My prayer is:

I will be what I will be; I will do what I will do.
All I want to do, need to do is stay within me.
All I want to do is, to do what I do and not try to do what I don’t do.
Just do what I do, just keep pace with myself.
Just be want I want to be.
“I always do so-and so,” or “I never do so-and-so,” as if being my self…..


“Next time I will……..”

“From now on I will…………….”

Is what make me think I am wiser today than I will be tomorrow????????

The Words Of The Person Who Inspires Me The Most

Ask nothing; want nothing in return. Give what you have to give; it will come back to you -- but do not think of that now... Yet have the power to give: give, and there it ends. Learn that the whole of life is giving, that nature will force you to give. So, give willingly. Sooner or later you will have to give up. You come into life to accumulate. With clenched hands, you want to take. But nature puts a hand on your throat and makes your hands open...The moment you say, "I will not", the blow comes; you are hurt. None is there but will be compelled, in the long run, to give up everything. And the more one struggles against this law, the more miserable one feels. [It] is because we dare not give, because we are not resigned enough to accede to this grand demand of nature, that we are miserable... The sun is taking up water from the ocean, to return it in showers. You are a machine for taking and giving: you take, in order to give. Ask, therefore, nothing in return; but the more you give, the more will come to you. The quicker you can empty the air out of this room, the quicker it will be filled up by the external air; and if you close all the doors and every aperture, that which is within will remain, but that which is outside will never come in, and that which is within will stagnate, degenerate, and become poisoned. A river is continually emptying itself into the ocean and is continually filling up again. Bar not the exit into the ocean.The moment you do that, death seizes you. Be, therefore, not a beggar; be unattached... Even if our every attempt is a failure, and we bleed and are torn asunder, yet, through all this, we have to preserve our heart -- we must assert our Godhead in the midst of all these difficulties. Nature wants us to react, to return blow for blow, cheating for cheating, lie for lie, to hit back with all our might. Then it requires a superdivine power not to hit back, to keep control, to be unattached.
- inspired by the words of swami vivekananda(leaves in fame)